I really hate to be second guessed. You make a decision, then someone asks, “Are you sure you really want to do that?”. Maybe that is why I am not so fond of the Windows operating system. I take a picture, or write a document, and accidently make a duplicate, or decide that I don’t have any use for it anymore. I click “delete”, and immediately, the holier-than-thou message pops up on my screen asking “Are you sure?”. Why wouldn’t I be sure? If I want to delete a document, I think that should be my choice. I don’t need counseling for it, I don’t need to do any additional research beforehand, but that doesn’t stop them, does it? I am sitting there, staring at this message of condemnation, wondering if I should really delete this item. What if I need it later? What if I am deleting the wrong thing? What if it will be lonely in the recycle bin? As a result, I usually just click “cancel” and let the item go along it’s merry way along side my pictures of myself and my music collection. I’m just a pushover I guess.
*sigh*
Hehe I am a dumbass.
I finally broke down and bought a Tantric CD. I’ve always liked them, and the CD has one of my favorite songs on it:
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“Mourning”
Is there something that you are trying to say
Don’t hold back now
It’s been a long time since I felt this way
So don’t hold back now
I purposely forgot about
Loving anyone
Cause I’m the only one who has
Who has been stepped upon
Is there something that you are trying to say
Cause I can take it
Cause I grew up a man this way
And if I’m hurt I’ll shake it
I’ll crawl back into my cave
That’s how I’ll make it
Cause out of all this hurt we have
Beauty thus become
Beauty thus become
[Chorus:]
In the mourning I can see the sights
No wonder I could never keep you satisfied
In the mourning I can see inside
Myself and all the things that you were trying to hide
[Repeat]
Wishing all the best for you
And now I will say goodbye
Cause all the shit that we’ve been through
Put wisdom in my eyes
So walk away, don’t turn around
Cause I won’t be standing here
Cause all the lies that I’ve been living through
Are becoming very clear
And beauty thus become
[Chorus]
Then you conned me into thinking
That all I had was you
The small insinuations
Were cutting me through
Cutting me through
And now I stand alone here
Stronger than before
And I’ll never go back
Never go back
Never go
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Such a beautiful song, I tend to get on these kicks where I listen to a bunch of sad stuff that is just plain depressing, lol. I was listening to country last week (Collin Raye), and getting all misty about that too, because it brought back a lot of memories of when I used to listen to him years ago.
Anyway, gotta clock in for work, and be bored for the rest of the night.
My trip to the recruiter was interesting today. They gave me some interesting options. I am still not sure if that is the route I want to take, but it gives me something to think about.
