A lot of times I am frustrated by my lack of wisdom in situations. I wish I had the wisdom to make the right choice in every circumstance, so I could avoid conflict. Unfortunately, I always seem to make the wrong decision, simply because I am impulsive. Ah well, just a thought. I will have to work on that.

I woke up freaking late today, I only have an hour before I have to head out to pick up my check and deposit it, then head to work. Hopefully this period’s check is decent. I have a few things I would like to purchase. I also hope my package arrives soon to ship my laptop in, so I can get the case repaired. Bah.

Well, back to my struggle to learn how to be a good person. Sometimes I think that I am genetically a bitch, and that I can’t change…but that’s really a cop out. I want to be nice, and moral, and someone who is likeable and helpful, compassionate and level-headed. I wonder if I can really change into someone like that? All I can do is try. Try for myself for once, not for other peoples’ impression of me, and not for my reputation.

Here’s to trying.