I got a lot accomplished today, which is odd for a weekend. :) I usually veg and then feel guilty for not doing shit. However, today I cleaned out a closet, did laundry, posted an item on Ebay and went grocery shopping. I am getting ready to go to a new friend’s house to hang out.
I have declared, quite vehemently in the past, that I don’t need friends, or, don’t want more friends, especially girls, blah blah blah, but I have found myself changing my mind as of late. Maybe I am growing up a little more. I guess that happens when you get old. Anyway, as I mentioned in a previous post, I have been a little depressed lately. I find myself being flirtatious around guys, at work and otherwise, then I feel incredibly guilty afterward. I am working on having that happy medium of a healthy dose of playful flirtation on occasion, without giving people the impression that I would be willing to go further with it (unless it’s a hot chick…then bring it on, baby. heh) Granted, I have done a LOT worse in the past, but now that I have moved past that, I don’t even like the occasional temptation to flirt suggestively with a member of the opposite sex. Thankfully, my husband is understanding, in that he knows I have issues, so I am able to move on and not worry too much. I have been a little down about a few other things in my life as well, but it’s just me being hormonal and bitchy. Being depressed makes me want to be around people who seem to be happy, or provide attention on some level that makes me feel good. So, I hang out after work with people I know care about me and want to see me happy (or maybe just want to get in my pants, who knows ;)), and I am striving to make new friends, even with females (gasp!) to break out of my anti-social behavior.
Well, that was waaay too revealing for a blog post, but I feel refreshed. :)
Love Y’all!!
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