I've joined a couple of groups MySpace that feature Funeral Directors and/or Embalmers or Morticians to be. I am learning a lot about the process to become an embalmer, the pros and cons of the job (it can be really messy) and what it's like to be in the industry. As a recommendation on the forums I have also started watching "Six Feet Under", it's of course Hollywood glamourized but does show some idea of what goes on inside the walls of a funeral establishment. So far, I haven't really been deterred by any of the cons of the industry…I am jealous of those who have family or friends in the industry, because that gives one a bit of a head start on things. I just know this is what I am supposed to do…almost like it's my calling. I know that sounds cheesy, but all of my real interests and ambitions seem to lead to this. I am terrified of the prospect of going to school, but I know the classes I need to take, I know approximately how much it's going to cost, and I have a loving husband there to support me every step of the way…as long as the steps are logical ones. I mean, how many husbands would support a wife becoming a mortician? I feel more excited, and scared, and motivated than I have felt in a long time.