I feel almost as if I have gone backward in time emotionally and mentally. Almost as if I did not want to deal with being depressed so I subconsciously positioned myself into a time where I was more comfortable. I don’t know, I feel rather strange this weekend.
I went to eat with an old friend whom I miss, and reformatted my computer. I’ve spent most of the weekend organizing my music collection. I have a lot left to do, but I am slowly getting all my CDs copied to my Ipod/PC. Maybe the music has put me into this mood. There were a lot of old stuff I was copying over, a lot of Christian music that I used to listen to, and it definitely triggered some nostalgia.
One song in particular caught my attention, called “Hate” from a mid-nineties Christian band called Common Children. I used to listen to this particular song almost obsessively.
A little bit depressing I suppose, but I am liking this calm feeling, the feeling like I am suspended in time and nothing can touch me.
Tomorrow I must return to the real world.
Can I stay here, please?
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