I was talking to a friend of mine the other night, and in a moment of clarity, I said:
“I think my biggest struggle right now, is that even though my actions show will power to not give in to my urges/weaknesses, I still can’t forgive myself for having the urges in the first place. I suppose I somehow feel that thinking about doing something is almost as bad as doing it. I can go through the motions of being the person I want to be, but if my mind is somewhere else, if mentally I escape to a different reality, then am I really better off than when I was acting those thoughts out in my life?”
Just wanted to write that for some reason.
Eh, who knows.
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