It's been an interesting day. An interesting week, really. Unfortunately, I can't go into detail about all of it. It was the best of times, it was the worst of times…or something, I have no idea what I am talking about, actually.
I came to some odd realizations about myself, and realized that I am really more fucked up than ever. You would think that after all the progress I've (supposedly) made in my life, that I would not feel like such a loser all the time. Of course, since I sabotage my own happiness all the @%$&! time, this is not the case. I've been really depressed all week, and I cannot really put my finger on why. I hate feeling like I am in some sort of transition, but not knowing what my mental state is going to be on the other side. I've thankfully gotten a grip on my impulsive behavior and tendency to make horrible rash decisions, so I really only have to deal with being f'ed up in the head and not knowing what to do about it.
I wish summer was over. I really do.
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