It’s been an interesting day in my world. The car/injury claim thing is finally over, thank goodness. Oh, and my niece is having a baby tonight, if she hasn’t already had it. I will be going tomorrow to see the little one.

I was feeling a little introspective today, looking back on where I was last year at this time. Sick; Both mentally and physically. Miserable, discontent in my job. Guilty and paranoid, regretful…I was a mess. I haven’t had a complete turnaround or an epiphany or anything special, just a little maturing and a little medication, along with a few good changes in the past year have made me happier, and healthier than before. I am working on a lot of things, and feel like I am actually progressing instead of taking a step forward and two steps back. I am slowly but surely realizing my dream of a comfortable, peaceful, fulfilling life. Thanks to everyone, and everything that made it possible.

Of course tomorrow I will be all depressed and “why me!?!?!?!”….I’m such a girl. :)

I leave you with this lyric from a band I loved as a teen:

Looking back at the road so far
The journey’s left its share of scars
Mostly from leaving the narrow and straight

Looking back it is clear to me
That a man is more than the sum of his deeds
And how You’ve made good of this mess I’ve made
Is a profound mystery

Looking back You know You had to bring me through
All that I was so afraid of
Though I questioned the sky, now I see why
Had to walk the rocks to see the mountain view
Looking back I see the lead of love

Looking back I can finally see (I’d rather have wisdom)
How failures bring humility (than be)
Brings me to my knees (a comfortable fool)
Helps me see my need for Thee